Jeng . Zxc

2012-02-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

You made me feel like I'm annoying.
You don't have to give me that kind of attitude. -_-

2012-02-01T16:51:00.008+08:00

I've a lot t say but it doesn't make any difference,

so sometimes I just chose t not say.

Sometimes if I've said it, I just hope that I didn't.

You may think that I don't get it,

but I'm still thinking further thou our conversations may have ended.

And until I get it as I've made a confirmation,

I'd like t tell you what that is,

But I've these questions stopping me:

1) Are you even intersted?

2) You may think I'm so random that I actually bring back the topic up

and just give me a (-.-) face or, "uh, oh. Okay"

That is why,

I said I'm always thinking further and further until I get an confirmation about it.

I'm being called, as "complex".

Agreeable?

No, this ain't the point.

I meant, the truth may not always be how you think it is.

P.s I just don't feel right in school.

2012-01-26T17:22:00.003+08:00

My gawd.
I strongly suggest you to ignoremy previous post!

Okay. Hello.
I'm still on my holiday!
Which means, I'm missing 3 of my school days!
WHICH MEANS, I'M GONNA HAVE A TOUGH TIME CATCHING UP NEXT WEEK!
Okay, Bless me ya.

2012-01-25T00:37:00.002+08:00

Yaw.
Nothing much happened, really.
Didn't thought of posting until now too.

Ridiculous.
People who makes no sense to me,
doesn't make any difference between yourself and the unwanted dusts.
;
Hi.
I miss whole lots of you.
Kay bye.

2012-01-14T22:45:00.004+08:00

Second week of school days has passed!
This week is totally packed up!
There's some unhappy things happened.
Well, there are happy things too.
Went to Lasalle Open House on Friday,
went home to prepare for 团圆饭,
went back home again for CCA work for the next day orientation which is today!
After that... Some things happened again.

* Why ain't I included in the first place? *
Wanted to let down everything, but friends said..

Was convinced and got a call, so I did went with them.
Spent $1.50 on the air, for Rilakkuma!
After that, first time tried to take bus which I've never take before to uhm,
for meet up.
And I've gotta wait, that's okay, I was so tired to think of anything.
So just wandered around.

Today, is the first day ever since school started,
I've never brought any revision 'materials' out with me.
So... Tomorrow gotta study and revise and finish all my homeworks!
GOTTA.

I've still got a lot of things I want to share, will you hear me out?

P.s I wonder if I've been suspect for anything by any one close to me. Just wonder, cus I know the way I am is different from people and people might wonder what the heck I'm doing or something. I'm just.. Insecure.. Wanna know who exactly I am to them.
My beloved ones.

I once heard, "If it's meant to be, it's meant to be." or something like this.

2012-01-09T17:33:00.002+08:00

Just started school last week.
My name have been called several times for some reasons.
First day of school, was like studying and studying and only studying.
But, day by day passed, I'm...
Uhm. Yeah.

School huh. _____ as always, not really because of my results but...
Idk whether it's me, myself been thinking too much or what but,
Really. Waking up early for school, facing some people, being noticed what I'm doing,
etc etc.
And some people just irritates me. It's okay. I don't give a damn but, why me?
There's got nothing to do with me, and you're there complaining like wtf.
So? You asking, and I ask you, so?
If I could say.
Kay, nevermind.
Bloody.

I love mama.

2012-01-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

新年快乐哟！！！

2011-12-31T01:03:00.002+08:00

It's almost the end of this year.
A lot of things had happened.
I've grown a lot in this year,
今年是我成长最多的一年
I've learnt a lot.
I've lost, and I've gained.
What comes, comes. What went, went.
旧的不去新的不来啊

2011-12-27T01:26:00.004+08:00

Yo, hi.
It's okay.
Don't worry.
不懂也没关系。
We're just friends who supports each other till the very end.
Doesn't mean we truly understand each other.
So it's okay. They're different cases.
You're still young, but not a child any more,
I believe that you can do it for whatever you're aiming for.
But in the end, sadly, sorry.
I don't want to think that you truly understand me.
We can share each other's problem, yeah. We can still.
You'll eventually understand what I mean, perhaps.

P.s I love love love love love love my beloved ones! 也谢谢你们的照顾！爱爱爱你们！

2011-12-22T23:20:00.004+08:00

其实我很怕！

Edited;2:07AM

OMG LAA. WHY "SOMEBODY" NEVER WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONE :'(
SOOOOB SOOOOOOB!!

2011-12-18T16:07:00.005+08:00

Thursday and Friday went t Chalet.
A lot of things happened.
Everyone were happy happy, chit chatting.
I bet, no one knows I was actually thinking a lot of stuffs.

I was, perhaps am, wondering what she's actually thinking deep inside.
It seems that, she just treat it as nothing has happened before.
But that way of gathering back is not the way I wanted, or want.
I rather talk about what happened back then, that made us came to this stage.
You tried and lead me, I followed as I always am. But I didn't/don't want this.
I'm touched, I know. But you kept coming closer and closer, w/o me knowing what you're actually thinking.
I'm afraid, really. I don't have th dare to keep the close distance w you.
I'm afraid that I'd lose you again one day.
I've no idea what I should do.
You remembered things back then when we were still v close, yeah.
You even got my picture which I didn't dare t look at it closely, with you.
Idk why you would keep that, or even you forgot that it's there, Possibly.
Idk why you'd deleted me from your facebook, but left that only account of mine.
Idk. You bad talked about me a lot. But you still chose to talk to me.
Idk a lot of stuffs that you've chose and decided.

If I could read you mind.

Shared by someone.

2011-12-15T00:36:00.004+08:00

Was chatting with someone, about my trouble.
Which is:

I want to start a conversation with you,
But I'm afraid that I would be disturbing you,
Or you may think I'm irritating/annoying/a busybody.
I'm afraid that I would be ignored.
Recently, I'm always the one who replied last.
That makes me feel.. Like.. You know...
If recently you're always the one who replied last in every conversation,
How far would your mind jump to?

How would I know if the person is busy, don't feel like talking, angry, depressed, upset?
And when they're feeling troubled, what if I interrupted their mind?
I mean like, seriously I'm afraid to be a disturbance.
What if they were happily chatting with their friends, having fun, or even in a serious mood?

I have no idea how to start a conversation.
Afraid to being ignored, or to think that I'm being disliked.

I dislike bringing troubles to others and I don't want to, I'm afraid basically.

No one likes it.

2011-12-14T02:12:00.011+08:00

I really, dk who can I talk to.
"You can talk to me!" or "S/he's the one I should talk to"
Yeah, I can talk to you you and you.
But, I'm not the type who would talk to whoever (regardless how close we are) about anything.
Just anything. I'm more of the kind that.. who's private?
Not that I don't wanna share with you.

And, on the OTHER hand, it's really hard for me to just start a random topic.
I just don't want any failure happen on myself.
Like, example, wrong timing? I did something at the wrong time perhaps?
How would I know if you ain't in the mood, and I started a random thingy.
It would be.. seriously a fail.

Well, actually.. I may kind of only dare to share something happened on me and person A.
But then, I've something in mind about what happened between myself and person A.
So I may share it with another person, B, who doesn't know A AT ALL.

And, another case.
I've known C. And D came into my life recently.
C and D doesn't seems to like each other, or one doesn't like the other.
I can't handle it steadily. All I can do is, I'm in the middle. I either support both, or neither.
And tell both of them what they should know.
Uhm. For the D, who I recently know, I don't say much. Cus I don't assume I know him/her well enough than anyone. I-DON'T-ASSUME-SUCH-THINGS. (One of the reasons that I stay almost totally silent the whole day with D(whoever it could be eg. new friends)

And sorry. Idk why, I'm feeling so bad right now. Although I'm just an audience who watches every single thing happening, I'm feeling bad. It's like watching drama, and I put myself in their shoes, and... Yeah.
Like today, I was chit chatting with a Friend. And hearing her story about her passed away uhhhm. Idk why, I just.. Yeah. She's strong. Really, strong. But, I know. She's a dummy. She's always good.

P.s I always "dummy" here "dummy" there, doesn't mean I'm scolding you dummy. But it's some kind of like... I'm a bit 心痛 or saying you're a kid/etc. Well, if you're being called "dummy" by me, I can be sure that you're loved.

不好意思。我现在是有点罗嗦啊。

I can ensure you, but remember, I won't say something that praises myself that's not true at all.

Once a friend of mine, it's forever.

Sometimes I really feel down when I thought of something I'm not included in your life.
Like, your past. I know nothing. I didn't been thru with you. Just, wondering.

Uhm. Actually till so far of this post, I'm not sure what I typed, so.. excuse me!

It's kind of embarrassing when I know someone's reading my blog.
So please, stay silent if you're reading ._."

Okay. To summarise all.
Go check the dictionary which describes clearly what an Introvert is.
:/ I've changed a lot, I mean, Improved myself a lot.
I was much more worse in the past.
I've learnt, I'm still learning, and I'm still gonna learn.
What you've been thru is... ...

You wished me to open up to you,
but I'm afraid you wouldn't open up to me after I'd open up to you.
给我保证？

Edited;Addons
原来我是很没有安全感。
不聊天就不会当那个最后一个讲最后一句话的人吗？
我想我也习惯被丢下了

2011-12-13T01:50:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow gonna meet up with baby.
Hopefully Penguini will be able to make it to us too.
And on wednesday... Well, may be kind of awkward.
Anyway, just go ya. For the sake of my sweetheart bowling :3
And Thursday... Starts a 2days one night challet. Gosh.
I'm so looking forward to it.
And I'm afraid I might be fragile very early, before we have fun.
._. I'm shooo woooorryyyyy.
What if I really UHM? What if I'm gonna be so weak that I can't speak a word?
Is it.. A waste of time for me dragging their time? :(

And, I'm kind of confused about how I'm feeling now.

Okay, for Christmas, Hmmmmm. Presents. What should I get?
我有选择障碍啊!!

2011-12-12T01:39:00.003+08:00

I'm unforgiving when it comes to myself.
I can't bring myself to forgive myself.
I can't forgive.
I.
Can't.

2011-12-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

Memorable.
Very thankful.
A 'Surprise Pinic' today,
thou it's 13 days earlier,
I love it.

Uhm. Yeah..
I'm on cab now.
In pain.
I should have really.. Stood up,
And just go home.
But i didn't.
I'm feeling no good at all.
恨气我自己
... ...

不要为了我做什么事
我怕我赔不起

-via mobile

2011-12-03T00:40:00.009+08:00

Things that have been bothering me all along.

1st. Someone 'lied'.

2nd. At first i thought I've been deleted as friend in th Krk fb a/c,
but actually I've been blocked.
Now I've been unblocked, I don't get that person's intention.

3rd. Whatever troubled looking words I've said,
all reflects on the past, like NOW. Yeah, NOW.

4th. I know and guarantee that no one would even bother t visit/read my blog,
other than some unexceptional ones.

5th. Sometimes I really mixed up the two between Friendships and 暧昧关系

6th. I know, I know having my long hair is better. And I want it long too, not that I won't.

7th. Someone and I, have been talking lesser and lesser.

8th. That person liked one of my fb status.
I thought that person would have ignore me all the way?
And now that person pops out when I'm almost gotten over everything that happened.

9th. People who don't express themselves give me headaches.
It doesn't matter if you've expressed telling me that I'm no good.
I would appreciate that more than YOU don't express yourselves.

10th. What am I to YOU? Nothing special at all? 什么都不是？

11th. What if I turned out to be LIKE those you hated most after knowing more and more?

12th. What would you do if you found out that I REALLY AM stupid?

13th.

etc. I can't think that much NOW.
Shall update THIS POST when I get what I WANTED to say.

2011-11-30T11:29:00.010+08:00

Heyyo.
Excuse me for th other day.
:)

I'm th one who tell me people t excuse me, but
I, myself can't excuse myself.
Gaaaah!!
P.s This is th other matter, not th other day matter.

Realizing how dumb I was, (am perhaps?)
Didn't take much notice t those who're always
walking along thru th up and downs w me,
I don't know how I'm feeling right now.

2011-11-29T17:16:00.007+08:00

I think I will always be bothered until there's no cold war.
But well, this kind of cold war is really bothering.
How long has it been?
I bet you're still having those negative thoughts about me.
Well yeah lahs. Of course you are.
I've alr gotten over that misfortune event.
But can't you think of getting over it alr?
At least allow us t get t know each other all over again?
Instead of having cold war.
Don't you love peace?
You don't have t bad talk behind me too, you know.
It's kind of ridiculous.
I know how I am, I don't think I have a perfect attitude too.

Darnn. I can't tell you all this.
It's not easy to keep these words unsaid.
Just.. forgive me for whatever you think I've done wrong already...
I.. miss you shooo muuuuuch you knoooow.

Just tell me how I am wrong, and I will try my best t change it.
If I can't change, I'll just hide that side of mine.

2011-11-28T22:30:00.004+08:00

December is in th corner yaw!
1st Dec, I'm gonna _____.
4th Dec, Ahma's coming! But I'm not sure when she's going back :(
15thDec, Someone's birthday yaw!
16thDec, Someone's birthday again!
23thDec, nah, forget about this date. Oh, it's a Friday. :O Hmm~
24thDec, Christmas Eve yeah!
25thDec, CHRISTMAS!~ and Someone's birthday~
28thDec, Ahma's and Someone's birthday!! COOL UH!!
Omg la LOL.

Uhm~~

2011-11-23T10:11:00.004+08:00

Enough

Eh LOL
Sho cuuuuteee riigghhhttt!!!

2011-11-14T09:45:00.005+08:00

No word can describe how I feel.
Nothing I can do to make up to my
Friends, who're always by my side.

Knowing myself better,
finding myself quite annoying w my sense of humor, and short temper.

Knowing you better,
you've never failed t cheer me up no matter how harsh I am to you before and forth.

Actually, even
I, myself, gets irritated and annoyed by the attitude I gave towards you, and how I were/am.

I've never LOVE to share, but keep it.
But sometimes, I WANT to share with you.

For some cases,
I'd rather hold on t th burden myself, instead of telling how I feel. Especially something nice to hear.
Ya'know..
Hazukashi

2011-11-12T12:51:00.005+08:00

It's raining.
My mind is full of you.

You affect me so much, in all different kind of ways.

When you're not in th mood,
I'll've the worst feeling that I have no idea how t console you.
Blaming myself is all I can do.
In that state, I'm nothing more than useless.

2011-11-07T15:07:00.004+08:00

有话不能说

I do miss you after all.
Getting t know you, seems so unreal now.
Like a fairytale.
Like a dream, and I'm awake now. Nothing's real.

Whether it's, you left me, or I left you.
There's no difference.
We just created the distance, between our bonds.

Your letters, our photos.

You once said, you hoped th motherly side, will never change.
I'm sorry, I should change.

2011-11-03T22:53:00.003+08:00

The month, December is nothing much, but just
Christmas Eve, Christmas, and New Year Eve.
Nothing much.
Don't. Expect. Anything. DON'T.
Don't... It's just an increase of age by 1. Nothing much.
Nothing much.

I'm still unsure.
Unsure of, whether I should be believing you.
Unsure of, are you really a friend.
Unsure of, is this the right thing to do.
Unsure of, what do you think of me, seriously.
Unsure of, would you think of leaving me one day.
Unsure...

希望你给我肯定的保证．
保证．．．
真心．．．

P/s. Idgaf. Don't always live in the past. Move on, will you? You're nothing much of difference from pestering me.

2011-11-02T21:30:00.005+08:00

So far till now.
What I know is.
I thought I found my happiness, and
then I found out that all of them were fake.

I'm broken, and I'm being glued up.
But, every pieces of me drops.

Am I fun, to be made fun of, to be treated like an idiot?
That hurts. Really hurts.
Being hurt, is not easy to heal.
i'm tired. really. i'm really tired.

Yes, I may not be clever.
You can say that I'm idiot.
But, don't treat me just like an idiot.
Even real idiots, are not supposed to be treated like this.
Don't use them as tools, or fairies.
Even fairies who helped you with lots of difficult problems, would leave you sooner or later.

It's not funny.
How many times had I went through and endured all the troubles,
that my friends were the one who should be having them, but I was the one who had them.
How many times was it.
And then, in the end, we've nothing between us, after what I did for them.

Could you be at eased?
You didn't do anything back for them, but hurt them even more deeply instead.
What's wrong? Do you not feel guilty at all?
I didn't helped or saved you just to make you feel guilty after what I'd done.
I don't need that. I just need Friends. TRUE FRIENDS, who can be trusted. TRUSTED.
And Rely on.

When you're sweating, is that sweat?
When you're showering, is that water?
-Neither-

I'm really, broken now.

The image of me has been seen as a Baby.

2011-10-31T00:59:00.007+08:00

神秘关心我的人
谢谢你愿意陪我走我这条人生
虽然有点无聊~
但，真的。很谢谢你。
有你（们）陪我向前走就足够了。
很感谢。

若你真认识我的话
那。。。呵呵。很好奇你对我的想法是什么。
好的怀的都没关系。
人，不会是完美的，但可以成长和改变　是吧？
不。人的缺点也可以算是真正的完美。

到现在。
明知道我们不适合，我还是对你念念不忘。
原因，不知道。
可能只是一种习惯。
那，把想你的习惯换成不想你的习惯吧。

其实。。。
还有一件事。
我。。。我怕。。
我认识新的朋友以后，他们也一样的离开我。。。
我很怕，失去。
失去对我来说，是一种恐惧。
谁能保证（你）能一直一直一直地培在我身旁呢？

2011-10-29T16:08:00.008+08:00

kns. I edit this post here and there, until EVERYTHING GONE.
Wth, LOL.
Don't expect me to rewrite the same thing HAHA.
Uh. Yeah. Hello.
I only remember,
I wrote:

成长

I feel like going to town, 走走，顺便人整条街路

Rofl. Okay. I have no plans for this weekends. What to do?
Nobody jio me one.
他们忙他们的
我忙我的。我没东西忙啊！
无聊。

2011-10-29T14:59:00.006+08:00

2011-10-26T21:21:00.005+08:00

The fact, I know.
It's, none of them would come to this place, my blog.
I quit blogging lots of times, cus I srsly don't want people know know about my troubles.
It just happened to be sounds so pathetic.

So, at least, just allow me to type all my pathetic problems here.
I'm getting depressed over something that cannot be rewind again.
I don't know why.
At that time. That very deep problem, are always appearing before my mind repeatedly.
How could you? It's okay.
How can you? I'm not okay, but you're there having fun, with the same 'interesting' people, same habit, same atmosphere, just missing a naggy person, me, is not a problem.
And I'm here, without the closest and warm feeling present in my current part of life.
What are you doing? And what I'm doing?
Am I just a simple friend to you? I gave my all, I tried and put in effort in our friendship.
It's not easy for a person like me to do such things.
Now, I won't say "If you're truly my friend, you will definitely understand. But you don't, I wasn't your friend after all"

Regardless of whose fault it is, why do we just ignore?
Ignorance... Is the worst. Fml.

I always took it as my fault, although I really knew you're just having a one-sided mind.

The person who hurts people doesn't mean that s/he ain't hurt.

Once, you thought I had new friends and I didn't want you anymore.
It's not like that at all. 只是一种想交新朋友的冲动。
也不是我爱上他，觉得她很懂我，或觉得有他就不需要你们了。
我从小，就很少朋友。不会交朋友。
我想要把我自己变得更好，不要让人觉得我很冷，很有距离感，没有幽默感。
你懂吗。。？
我……
其实。。。我。。。真的。。。是过不去。。。

When someone asked me, was it because of 'them'?
I was always hoping that you knew...
Well, so what?
Something always scares me, like: "Heck care. I don't give a shit. So what? She isn't worth for us to be bothered about" is what you're thinking.
Yeah... This is the main thing that always makes me to tears.
I'm afraid, whenever I woke up, I'm terrified that it may happened to be the truth.
I'm scared.
Yeah, I always run away. But, if I stay, won't I be stupid? Actually, I'm not totally running away.
I did have a bit, just a bit of hope. However I know, nothing would work, cus what we're doing is just.. As I said above.
You're having your continuing life.
Mine, is a completely different and kind of uncomfortable.

At first, I'd always think, "Am I one of them? Do they really want me to stay with them? Or they're just 'letting' me to stay with them?"

I seriously, have no idea what's going on. I know, but I mean, I don't know what should be going on.

今年就要这么样过去了。。。？

2011-09-24T13:08:00.046+08:00

Let me tell you one thing.
A person cannot be describe just by One Word.
Withing themselves, one can have more than one personalities.
They inner and outer; Inner can have more than one, Outer can too.
Or, you can replace th "can" to "will"

As I "thought", "This is me" and the next time, I'm being "The other me"
They're all me, true self. All in one, still myself.
You can, too.
Don't worry too much, this is you,
Don't separate everything, don't have to.
It's still you.

-

1. Talk about others more than yourself.
2. Don't resist anything that your friends say, give other facts or options instead.
3. Don't lack behind, stand beside them instead.
4. Don't give comments, but ask more even u know the answer. Know from them, they'll know from u.
5.Stop worrying and thinking just by yourself. Ask or tell and share with them.

-

Right, they're so sweet. 祝福你们.
I: Do you know, how hard it is, to make this decision?

2011-09-20T19:21:00.003+08:00

I love to sing.
But my vocal chord can't take much.
And my throat is way too sensitive.
It always get infection too easily.
Just by reading a paragraph out,
My throat would feel very dry, and painful.
C.M.I ):
I love musics, songs, :/
I wanna learn drum very badly.
But I don't think I can ask much -_- from my mum.
So, I "dream" of having a friend who knows, can and willing t teach me play drum!
Erm, Piano also can(: Guitar also can! Don't let my instruments t be a waste! :/
Hope it wont!

2011-09-17T17:44:00.002+08:00

YOU CAN'T MISS THIS! OMG! NARUTO♥

Powerful females.

2011-09-16T16:03:00.003+08:00

郁可唯 ─ 傷不起 (有歌詞字幕 Lyrics)

最近其实心情有点压压的
一直想　一直想：现在马上撕掉一切就什么就不用担心了
唉

上学前　还不是很想去呢
一想到要上课　就觉得。。。我做不到
这是事实　真的　不要看扁我
在我身边就好

2011-09-12T19:46:00.001+08:00

2011-09-08T23:19:00.003+08:00

I've been Twitting! I'm lazy t repeat everything happening for th past "few" days, so yeah(: Tweet tweeet!

Draft on 8Sept.

2011-09-02T22:47:00.003+08:00

Aweful.
I didn't went to school yesterday.
Th previous day, I went t see doctor.
Doctor says, I needa get more rest.
And says I need not go t school.
Mum did planned on asking for MC, but well,
Doctor automatically gave.
I was like "I dooon't waaaaaant~~~"
And mum gave me that strict expression, wth~~
Then right, reached home, I asked again.
She became more strict about it.
She's worrying too much~
She said: "你的喉咙还没有好。你最好不要出去。你本来是完全不可以出去的"
Then, I have nothing t say.

The next day, I asked: "我等一下可以出去吗？"
Mum: "你的喉咙好了没？"
Me: "好了"
Mum: "天亮之前给我回来"
I was kinda like --> YES!!! *~*
Muahaha!

Yeah, I spent 45 mins for choosing what clothes t wear.
Then anyway, went out, wanted to go school take sth,
But then, there's no way I'd wear home clothes to school, -.-
NO WAY.

Okay then. I have been taking public transport recently.
Yes I'm still going to.
Well there's a need for better time management.

Bowling was fun, right. Natsukashii(:
And when I'm on th way home, it's so like, FATE HAS COME.
But I didn't take any opportunities. I lost th GOOOOOD chance. Nvm.
):
Right, today~ I'm a dead worm.
I've been lying on bed since I woke up till evening.
Then I'd finally decided to on Lapp.

Okay anyway, HYK and Girl Friends are th Best of the Best manga I've read!
Yeah :D

In fact, I already started to miss my friends.
Tomorrow, an early flight. I can't imagine how am I going t have fun overseas.
Seriously. Okay(:

HeyGirls♥

P.s 30thAug - went for --- concert @ night, with mum.

2011-08-29T21:59:00.005+08:00

I woke up before alarm rings by 1hour plus.
I couldn't sleep back.
Start preparing slowly.
Was going leave at 12.30,
well, due t some delayed situation, i was late.
What i wore today, yes, it's me, th other.
Behaviour too? Well its not a surprise for my behavior,
cus it alr started reborning for quite some time.
But i feel more comfortable being like this, and uncomfortable too.
Oh yeah.. During movie, Suckseed btw, my "usual" self did showed up.
Which is me? I'm just me. Those are me. That's me.

Yes, it's nice, th movie, no negative comments, as usual.
And, other "external" sheatty problems, i srsly dk wad t do,
Ah darn.

Okay, shopping.
Me- walking, passing by some peeps yeah. *gonna check out that lady*
ok, i saw back view. Nvm, continue lookibg for things.
Th lady: (mumbling mumbling t th elder lady with her, looking this way)真的！～！！
Me- i look back at her, *huh?* turn away continue looking for stuff.
*wait, she looks like some unknown person.* WALK back t turn t look at her again.
Eyes met. *OH MY FURKING SHEAT. WHAO. She's tall!*

Ok LOL. this story, i know can liao. HAHA.
Oh yes, i observe ladies! Pretty GIRLS perhaps!

-Posted via Mobile

2011-08-28T22:56:00.003+08:00

I've got poor results.
It's the worst ever since I came t S'pore.

Went t clinic today.
Gastric problem, chin muscle problem, intestine problem, throat problem.
It's all linked, including other organic problems.
A long life with so much slight poor conditions.

I've always wanted to shout out loud, relief myself, since that day.
I hope, tomorrow will be a chance for me to have fun a little.

I've been playing The Sims Social on Fb,
wanting to decorate here and there,
since I needa really not spend up in real unnecessarily anymore.

JUST recently, I'm starting to let lots of things go.
Well, pardon that I'm slow, but I just realised
that there's people miss the past too.
Actually, it's not really wrong right?
Everyone do misses what they've been through.
It would be a lie, if they say they don't care at all.
Even a heartless dude would think of himself.

2011-08-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hi. As dol can see,
Previous post has been deleted.
I've decided t blog.

Had a haircut today @ BP Plaz.
It's short again. Well, better than not having cut.
I couldn't bear t put my hair down in public before its cut.
Now, i want it long, and mend.

Also went for an eye check.
Yes, my degree has reached 400. Gosh.
I dont wanna wear that red frame spec.
It could be outstanding.
And some more, th length is shorter than my current one.
It look, weird(?) to me perhaps.

And yeah, I'm still having gastric pain.
It was a serious great pain in school, especially.
Had a slight fever.
I'd like to thank those who really cared and worried about me.
I appreciate. Really.

-Posted via Mobile.

2011-04-15T22:24:00.002+08:00

Yo.
Omg.
How long has it been since I last posted!?
LOL!
I did badly for Common Test, which is only Combine Science passed.
For Individual subjects, ONLY Chemistry passed.
Did I broke record? Yes, for the years in Singapore.
Has my life been ruined? To some of you maybe?
Some of them are starting to look down on me.
I tell you, I hate Hao Lian ppl! PLS. --'
A word which can't describe enough.

Oh yeah. Putting my poor Results aside, I can feel that my life is getting MORE interesting!
Like: when am I getting to meet my so called a crush?
when am I going to get out with friends and loitering around crazily?
when am I going for CLUBBING? :D
when's my first date?! LOL!
Jkjk. Seriously, I've met a lot and get to know more about quite a lot of people alr!
I love you<3 :D

Well, of course it's not true that there's nothing bothering about me at all.
Especially friendships and all those.
Some of them just can't understand.
I 'can' ONLY sit there and listen to them, why can't they do the same thing?
Even they do sit there while I'm telling/sharing things with them, they're not listening heartedly.
Well, for my mum, although we sometimes couldn't talk properly especially on phone when she called me, i got quite furious for idk what reason?
but we're able to talk whatever we want and share things like whatever tgt at home.
that's why, i love home.
I love mum.
and of course! AH BI TOO!!!

Happy Birthday to Aquarius

2011-02-26T13:00:00.003+08:00

Hai evari budi ~
Common Test is coming in 2days!
Oh, should be 1day and a quarter of day!!
Aiy~ I'm too relax LOL.
I've given up on school studies for 40% now.
It was 35% though.
I have to concentrate on other things, not an excuse thanks.
I'm responsible for everything but, don't judge me by the results I got, -.-'
Especially some cher in school. Only know how to see but not considerate.
Tsk. I've totally given up on that cher, not subject.
Cher is to teach us, not keep talking about strategies, she's not the only one who knows the BEST about EVERYTHING．
什么了不起？

Quiz 2.

2010-11-19T17:25:00.001+08:00

Starting time: 6.13pm
Name: Jeng
Eye Color: Black
Shoe size: 9
Hair: Black
Piercings: 2
Height: 162cm
What are you wearing right now?
-T-shirt & shorts.
Favorite drink: Tea
Favorite month: December
Favorite breakfast: Just Drinks
-Have You Ever-
Broken a bone: No
Been in a police car: No
Fallen for a friend: No.
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time: No.
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep in school: Yes
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yes
Saved e-mails: Yes
Been cheated on: Yes
-What-
Your room like?: (:
What is right beside you?: Ren Shen Cha! (Ginseng Tea) ^^v^^
What is the last thing you ate? Ice-cream
-Ever Had-
Chicken pox: Yes.
Sore throat: Yes.
Stitches: No
Broken nose: No
-Do You-
Like picnic?: No
-Who-
Did you last yell at?: Bibi!
Who was the last person you danced with?: -.- Jamie
Who last made you smile?: Hmm. Hmm. Oh ya, Shuting.
-Final Questions-
What are you listening to right now?: 好但你就来 by 阿密特 ^^
What did you do today?: Uploading photos & so on.
Diamond or pearl?: What? Neither(?) Maybe Diamond? (Diamond shapes are COOOOOOOL O.O)
Are you the oldest?: Er. Hi?(:
Indoors or outdoors?: Depends.
-Today did you-
Talk to someone you like?: Hmm Hmm. Yeah. O.O Sisters♥
Kiss anyone?: Yes! Bibi ~
Sing?: Yes~
Miss someone?: Yes ~ meeting them tmr. O.O
Eat?: Eaten.
-Last person who-
You talked to on the phone?: Sandy.
Made you cry?: Okay. Myself♥
Went to the movies with?: Jasmin, YanRong.
You went to the mall with?: Sandy, Jacky.
Who cheered you up?: Myself. Okay Jacky. Does he know? O_O
-Have you-
Been to Mexico? No
Been to USA? No.
-Random-
Have a crush on someone?: Now? No. LOL.
What books are you reading right now?: Don't read books.
Best feeling in the world?: Hmm. Get what I want.
Future kids names? Didn't think that far.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: YES LOL!! HAHAHAHA.
What’s under your bed? Bags. Books. Er, Idk? Made it a store case o.o
Favorite sport(s): ~~Basketball.. ): No one pei me. ~.~ 糟糕~~ Swimming!!!
Favorite place?: Home.
Who do you really hate?: Er. 做作和炫耀的人　说谁？
Do you have a job?: -
What time is it now: 6.38PM

[/Edited. 19022011]

Quiz 1.

2010-11-19T16:57:00.001+08:00

I've done --- out of the 132 stupid things.
Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(√) Drank Alcohol
SO FAR: 1
Level 2
(√) Am / Been In Love
(√) Been Dumped
( ) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(√) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 3
Level 4
(√) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(√) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 5
Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(√) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6
Level 6
(√) Eaten Sushi
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 7
Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(√) Taken Pain Killers
(√) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(√) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 10
Level 8
(√) Had A Tea Party
(√) Flown A Kite
(√) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(√) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 12
Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(√) Cheated While Playing A Game
(√) Been Lonely
(√) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO FAR: 15
Level 10
(√) Watched The Sun Set
(√) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 17
Level 11
(√) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(√) Been cheated on
(√) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 20
Level 12
( ) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(√) Had Detention
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 21
Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(√) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 22
Level 14
( ) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(√) Questioned Your Heart
(√) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 24
Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(√) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(√) Swam In The Ocean
(√) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 27
Level 16
(√) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(√) Played Cops And Robbers
(√) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(√) Sang Karaoke
(√) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 32
Level 17
(√) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(√) Made a Prank Phone Call
(√) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(√) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 36
Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus I LOVE SANTA {he doesnt exist)
(√) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(√) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere
SO FAR: 38
Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(√) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(√) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 40
Level 20
(√) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 41
Level 22
(√) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(√) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top(How I wish I could, feels good)
SO FAR: 43
Level 23
(√) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(√) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 45
Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
( ) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(√) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
SO FAR: 46
Level 25
(√) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 47
Level 26
(√) Played Chicken
(√) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
( ) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 49
Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(√) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(√) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 51
Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(√) Cheated On A Test
(√) Forgotten Someone's Name
( ) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(√) Tried to hurt yourself
SO FAR: 54
Level 29
(√) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling.
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 55
Level 31
(√) Been Used
(√) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(√) Bitten Someone
( ) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 58
Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
Total: 58

[/Edited.19022011]

献给一位...

2010-11-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

这是献给一位特别的人
好朋友不是靠长短的沟通时间
我们...还是好朋友吧?

前几天我想了很多,
我们一开始每次在一起
感情变得越来越深
你帮我　我帮你（其实我觉得我没有帮到你什么忙）

虽然一段长长的时间没联络
但是每一刻我都会想你的事情

然后我回头看看我们的回忆
我很感动
我也很后悔我没看清楚你的世界
对不起　我沉静看不起任何事，自以为是

可能
有一段时间对某些事有种恐惧吧
也害怕失去

所以我现在只能祝福你的未来了
我相信你会过得越来越好

姐妹